Two days ago I got my ass chewed
up one side of the wall and down the other. Who did it is not important
but this person was correct. I am afraid I have lost this person in the
Basically I frittered away $100,000 last year. I got it in a settlement from an injury and with 14 months it was gone. Never mind that I am basically debt free and that I paid back everybody I could. I frittered away $100,000.
The bottom line was that if I want to get out of my predicament, I need to do this by myself and make everything right with the world.
The problem is that I am very sick. I do not know what I have - I have ideas - but I will actually get a diagnosis on Thursday, a big step.
So I have started the path to make things right. I have not sold my pickup truck although I want and need to. That would be a great egg to keep me going in the coming months. I have moved to a much smaller apartment. Saved me $300 right there. and it has its own heat, internet and extended basic cable included in the rent.
But this is small measure to what I need to do. I have to go forward from this point now. Thursday I find out what my future holds. In the meantime I need to think a lot about what I can do to survive.
I have discovered friends in places I did not know I have them. Don & Rich have gone out of their way to help me get settled in. I am having a lot easier time disposing of things I do not need anymore. Ken has been a good send always finding the time to be around when I really need him. Andy Petras is another great guy. He is always willing to let me use his ear. And many more as well. Don’t let me forget Art. I value his words beyond reckoning.
And now I am learning from new sources. Greg Pettis has been sending me ideas to get though this. Last night a couple stopped by and delivered two huge bags of groceries. They were very well received and even though there is far more food than I could use before it spoils I am sharing with Mitch and making sure nothing goes to waste.
The one thing that I have learned is to get beyond the past and work hard on the future. Everybody is telling me that now.
I will sell the pickup. I have to, I need the money. But it will take time to make sure I get value for it. I do not want to give it away. The money can go in the bank and act as a buffer.
Pray for me will you please. I need any help I can get in the next week. I feel relatively good so that is a good sign, right?